Wednesday, March 5, 2008


I've tried writing this post several times. Every now and then I'd get the urge to post something on the blog, a little update, but halfway through, I'd give up and just close it out. I just didn't feel like posting. But I like the blog, it's my only journal and diary and I post things here to vent when I can't vent in real life. And all of you who read my ramblings and are, by some miracle, interested in what I have to say, grace me with comments and insights that I don't often see on my own. This place is my escape, and it's times like this when I need to get away from it all, the one place where I can be myself, through and through.

My dad's family is not making it easy on my family, but we're making due. I had hope that they might have changed, or at least put aside harsh feelings during this period, but they haven't. I should have expected it, it just wouldn't be them if they did. Towards the end of March we have to go to his hometown in another state and go to court so that all this stuff can be settled. This is probably going to be one of the last updates about my dad. I may update while I'm on the trip, I may not. My grandparents want me to look at it like a vacation, and maybe it should be. It'll give us some time away from it all to relax.

Anyway, I'm going to start writing again and posting, a couple of things I've really missed doing in all this, but not anymore about this. I hope you'll all be happy to see me back, and I can't wait to catch up on what's been going on while I was gone.


MerylF said...

Even if you don't publish it, it's good to write out feelings in these hard times. It helps you understand what's going on inside. So keep journaling - it's good for the soul :)

I'm sorry to hear about your dad's family, but sadly that is the nature of families; petty jealousies become all-important.

I look forward to your return.

PJ Hoover said...

People are all so human. The good and the bad parts too. Sigh. I am amazed time and time again how death brings out the worst in so many people. It sucks to go through it, but hang in there.

Welcome back to the blog world. We've missed you!

Jean said...

I'm sorry for your troubles with your dad's family. Death doesn't tend to bring out the best in people.

Looking forward to having you back.

Jaye Patrick said...

I'm sorry you're going through this, Jason, family can be hell. But... family trees have bitter nuts as well as sweet fruit.

Journaling (or blogging) will help you through it.

Come back soon, we've missed you.

Wendy said...

I can't wait to read more of your ramblings! We certainly do miss you. :)